Purpose

“I’m not sure we find our purpose so much as we create it.”

I’ve been struggling with purpose and direction a lot lately. This is nothing new, in fact, it’s maybe even a constant. Some days less so, some days more.

I’ve been feeling stagnant and stuck, like I’ve missed a step that I should have taken or a door I should have walked through. I can never put my finger on it but it’s always there, just out of my periphery.

When this happens, I usually turn back to my journal and go through the reasons that I’m on my path and the action steps I’ve decided to take. This didn’t work so well for me today. I just never really got the thought that I was lost out of my mind. I kept turning back to my social media pages and going through posts and my bio, trying to find something that I’ve missed, something to jump out and answer the yearning hole in my soul.

It led me around in circles and never helped, I knew it wouldn’t, but I couldn’t stop. Maybe I was just looking for a distraction from the noise, that didn’t work either.

So, I jumped on my laptop and started writing. Just getting everything going through my head down in one document. Paragraph after paragraph, conflicting and arguing with each other. It was like spewing a mini battle from my mind out onto paper. But, as I wrote, the story started to become clearer. The noise started to make sense.

Writing always helps me. I’m drawn to it. Like there is an invisible magnet in my body that draws me back to the journal and the keyboard every day. Funnily enough, the days I fight that pull the hardest are the days that I find myself so confused and lost.

We all have one, we are all drawn to something. Maybe our lives, influences and decisions have pulled us so far away that we’ve lost touch a little but deep down it’s still there.

Don’t fight the pull. Use it to create your purpose.

Dice