Some nights

“Some nights it just doesn’t work out.”

We’ve all been there. The mood is shit. Nothing seems to be going right. Bad stuff keeps compounding.

The signs are there. Less sleep last night. Longer day. More rushed afternoon duties. Feeling drained.

Then just as it all seems to be turning around, another little spanner in the works.

“Why?”

“Why can’t stuff just work out?”

I mean, I know why. That’s not how the world works. It doesn’t owe me anything. It doesn’t care if I had an exciting idea to write about tonight. It doesn’t care that I wanted the girls to go down easily so I could get to sleep earlier. It doesn’t care that I feel like I gave a lot today and need some me time. None of that matters.

There are just scenarios for us to respond to. Not good or bad. Just events.

Yeah, I had a cool idea for a different journal post but now I’ve got this one. Maybe it will be one that helps more, maybe not. I know I feel better since I started writing it. I know that when I start to get my thoughts down in writing they seem a lot smaller and less intense than they do in my head.

Yeah, I feel like I gave a lot today and I’m drained. Good. I’m drained by doing something that I love and believe in. Get up and do it again tomorrow.

Yeah, I wanted to get to bed earlier as I’m tired but that’s not the girls fault. That’s on me. It’s all on me. Always has been – always will be.

My attitude and response is always on me. Writing helps me to remember that when I get off course. Re-calibration complete.

I hope sharing this helps someone at a time that they might need it. It’s nearly never as bad as it feels in the heat of the moment and creating tools and actions to help you re-calibrate quickly is very beneficial. We all struggle, but we can all climb too.

Pursue your potential

Dice